Of Hrithik Roshan, Roles and Life's strange questions

Hrithik Roshan sings in Lakshya "....Main jaisa hoon, main waisa kyon hoon?". Sets me thinking on this drowsy Saturday morning. Who am I really? And who am I pretending to be? Most day's I'm not who I am , just pretending to be someone else - I am the daughter my mother wishes I was. I am the employee my boss has always hoped to have. The funny friend, the shoulder to cry on. The good samaritan. The angry young woman, short tempered, claws and all - roles I've lived all my life......on somedays that's Me, most days it's someone else's version of the Me that I'm supposed to be.

One has so many roles to play. Life is really like a Stage. Our lives are scripted before we are born. For most part, it is pre-determined by someone else who we grow up to be. Our education, our careers and even our spouses are usually decided by someone else. We're there just to play a part, make sure we don't fumble our lines and pray that we make a graceful exit without stumbling.

I am most of the above, but that's probably because that's who I've been trained to become. If left to myself, I'd be different. It's like if you're asked (another favorite question) "If you didn't know how old you were, how old would you really be?". The answer to that question keeps changing. Similarly, if you weren't born to the parents you have, or in this family, what might your life have become? What kind of a person would you have grown up to be? Who would you have been?

Confused? Take heart, so am I.
Which brings me back to my first question : So who am I really?
Some poetic answers, some corny. Most truthful.

I am the Aloe Vera who heals effortlessly after being broken
I am the wisp-of-a-cloud that drifts with the wind, no direction.
I am Amitabh Bachan, resilient. I have many public faces. I am a good actor
I am Medha Patkar, always on a soapbox.
I am MFH in his early days, although I haven't painted any hoardings yet.
I am Arundhati Roy before God of Small Things.
I am Monica from friends (okay, I'm not THAT obsessive - just a litte bit).
I am Bill Gates. I learn things about the inside of a computer effortlessly without being formally trained.
I am Richard Bach. I love flying and I can write a little too :)

WOW!

It's a wonder I haven't been formally diagnosed with schizophrenia yet!!! So many people! No wonder I'm confused!!! ;-)